I don’t know about you but in this time of quarantine I’ve had a much more difficult to pray, or even study the Word. My routine hasn’t changed hardly at all because of the life circumstances I’m in, but my brain is fuzzy. I can’t explain it.
And then occasionally I take to the piano and singing and you know what songs I’m playing? The oldies. The ones like “Purify my heart, let it be as gold…and precious silver.” Really? Who made those songs? And wrote them? So that they would become our prayers?!
Well, the Lord has heard. And I think I’m hearing too. This time of shut-down is partly because I feel we need to examine our hearts, let the Holy Spirit scrub them, and prepare for the next season. Because honestly, I don’t believe we’ve seen nothing yet. This isn’t the “big one” that brings us to our knees. I don’t know what the next thing will be, but I believe this we’re experiencing now is a warm-up of what’s ahead.
But back to cleansing. It means letting the Spirit show me where I have had offense in my heart, or even hardened my heart towards others. I have already dealt with one situation. And now I’ve opened the door to deal with another one. I’m in fear and trembling as this is a dear friend but I have hardened my heart to her.
And then there’s the attitudes of my heart. It’s time to repent. Not just repent but make changes. In some areas it’s not s hard and other areas I’m really struggling to change my ways. I need Him more and more.
As far as praying, I don’t know what to think. It’s just such a stuggle right now and I can’t explain it. Maybe it’s more than just me. Maybe it’s “all this.” But if you too are feeling that way, you’re not alone. And let’s press on.
So I sense in my spirit that the Lord is redeem all this for great things. Perhaps even to pour out His Spirit “on all flesh.” But I also sense that this is just the tip of the iceberg. And to be ready for the next thing we must prepare our hearts. Let him get his scouring brush and scrub. Because we need to be ready.